Grey & Gloomy

It is cold, damp and grey....Things that I dread are these three things. It makes one want to hibernate and crawl into bed till spring. You become too sensitive too growly and thin skinned. So hence I am all these. The bitterness of the morning the ache in my heart with a misunderstanding with someone I adore so very much, someone who I can see no wrong in. The truth is I want to throw up that I'm so hurt. I know I have boat loads to do today..More than I can deal with. I feel like it all piles up on me and then I can not catch up. Then I feel like I will be wrong forever in this persons eyes. I KNOW that this is all very hyper sensitive...And I should brush it off and cowgirl up....But until I get to the bottom of this, it will be what it is. I had a long talk with someone else trying to figure out how "it " got of hand. A bit on each end I'm sure. We have each had a hard week both a bit on edge. I would think that that would make it easier for it to get to where it is...No one is at fault just a thing that rolled down hill and getting to this point. I'm hoping and praying it can be fixed sooner than later. This person and I are both stubborn and I never believe that this person genuinely believes me as it is. And "just to make peace" is beginning to take it's toll on me. Im worried and scared that this too could get out of hand ..Thus my sadness is to the core of my soul. On top of this I've had to argue with several companies to "do the right thing" and to this moment I feel that it on top of this is caving in on me as if I've fallen into some grey abyss that has challenges that I feel I should not have to battle alone.. And others that Im so tired of and new ones that I cringe at. If I was two of me I could not do it all. And I do not want to walk weak and tired, emotional and sad....No one has to make sense of my ramblings just know that I need a few days and will return to my normal happy self and I will wait for the light of understanding..I have no such patience making it harder on my heart still. A journey is just a journey not a destination . October and I have hated one another for as long as I can remember...anything that could go wrong in my life has happened during this month, the last two weeks of it are the worst. I wont explain but trust me on this.....I would love to skip this whole month.
Anyway the day is full of all kinds of things that have to get to as well as things I don't want to.....I want to go back to bed and just sleep....No such luck.

Every Eye Beholds You

Thursday

Sometime you just fall...I fell asleep on the sofa the television on and all the cats fast to sleep on the electric blanket on the bed. Go figure the cats on 500 thread count sheets...Something is SO WRONG about that. I usually only fall asleep like that when hubby is home, no so last night....I ended up with back ache and migrain. The reason is that I was not able to turn the heat off , hence too hot and no window near my face.

Enough of the snivalling...Coffee is good, very good! A chilly October day, fog along the fence and road...I'll see just how far come light.

The Saga of the 4runner continues, not due to Kpro but to the oil change place in town. They causing a multitude of problems the first of which was the oil spill and the rest is yet to be determined ....It is now two weeks, their promise is yet to be fulfilled at this point. I will wait to state WHO they are pending the outcome of what was agrees upon. Come Friday all bets are off and I will expose their identity. I have been an outspoken person when it comes to doing the right thing or when someone is wronged and the person or company that is the offender has no integrity....I was raised, thanks mom, to do the right thing regardless of the cost or reason....YOU HAVE TO BE IMPECCABLE WITH YOUR WORD.....Do more than you have to and defend those who can not themselves. I hate it when someone promises something and then does by choice honor that promise...We are not talking about an obligation that by events can not be done. Anyway I really do not want to expose them I think that too reflects poorly as well. But if

1) it keeps someone less capable then I from being in a situation as this
2) forces by shame to make them do the right thing to keep their word

I do not think I would consider such a thing if it was not a huge company.....And that after some investigation found that this was a long term problem with a trail of complaints and legal actions...Currently I will keep it to myself....Until my hand is forced , by integrity and morals to do otherwise...I always would prefer to have the right thing done..

Well Stevens Pass has had it's first snow and the colors from the trees are now covering the lawn..Warning me that fall is about to turn to winter darker and earlier nights. I have never liked fall or October...Wet, cold and grey. Some people love it and I wish I did as well..It is worse here then it was in Wenatchee. Less rain, more cool then anything. I love winter there. I remember being bundled up and traipsing thru the snow up to the barn and looking across the river to Jump Off Ridge so cold and clean and the peace and quiet. The horses playing with the snow...How I miss Wenatchee......We can not go back soon enough.

Well there is plenty to keep me busy inside while the grey and rain continue....
Have a good day and be well.

What If?

I had this call and the person , a friend said to me "what if.....?" Now you know good and well that most folks over lets say 30 don't bother with the what if thing...First there is no such thing. And second if you have to make it sound too good too convince yourself them maybe you should just let it go... This thing about being in a hurry, need to do this and that the need to do this well...It will just make you nuts...Let things be ......They are what the are....

I went to the barn to check on chickens....The stray banti is no place to be seen....Every last one of those chickens are molting and they all look as if I had taken them to a rooster/chicken fight rarely do I have pity for anything but in this case I do...The feathers are flying all around the barn and the urge to glue them back on crossed my mind...Thank Heavens they are inside the dry barn cuz when they are wet they look even more pathetic. And at least there when someone visits from the city they don't see them....With an onslot of questions like are your chickens sick? Did they get in a fight? What happened to them?.....Anyone who has had a chicken longer then 8 months KNOWS what is wrong....The poor things! They are what they are.

The horses are glaring at me on a regular basis right now..The rains have started making the horses cranky. Why you ask? Well they do not to go out into the big pasture when it is raining as it is easily torn up and recover takes so long on it....The Alpacas are wet and very funny looking too like drowned rats with huge eyes that plead with you to make the rain stop...

I finally got to the feed store for more fencing, chicken feeders, electric fence parts and at least two types of seed. The plan is to move the alpacas to upper pasture , prep and reseed that one. And keep everyone off of it for the next three months. Now that is not realy as hard as it all seems it is what it is. The horses will be confused why they ( the alpacas get to go there and they don't....We found out this summer NO ONE had any livestock here for the past 30 years ( why I'm not sure) Thus making the pastures in poor shape, hence the reseeding .....

Well that is the short of it and I'm happy that it is not raining this morning, although it is suppose to later today. I'm off to the city for an appointment and will cringe as I drive through the traffic. Hope you all stay dry and warm....

How cold can you go

HALLEYVILLE

Barn Tales

It all started with good intentions as all plans do. And you know good and well that the well being of the ranch is always top priority, and the chickens are no exception. So with winter fast approaching and the rains starting the chicken NEED a covered place to roost at night. Now my honey had to leave for his job with three days notice not near enough time to build a chicken coop. So we decided we would put the chickens in one of the stalls in the barn. Just for the winter.... Had I any idea that the following days would involve a whirl wind of sorts I am pretty sure I would have just stuffed them into the garden shed and called it good...Taking the rath from hubby later. The problem with this idea would involve moving a great deal of tools and garden items that finally ended up in it.

Okay so the first two days of the chicken rodeo only ended up with me having frozen wet feet and the chilly air hitting my ears causing me to put my hat on ...Yet ending with me being stung on the forehead as the wintering wasp had decided that the hat was the perfect location to do the winter in. After arriving back home I again tried to corral the fearless feathered ones. After a great chase around the yard I decided to put a trail of feed into the side yard, enclosed with only a few trees for cover. I round up 4 of the 5 hens into said yard and locked the gate figuring that when it stopped raining I'd get them caught and tossed into the barn. Well the fact that once it starts raining it is not in all reality going to stop anytime soon. So several hours later, yes it is STILL RAINING, I go out in the down pour and get an empty feed bag. That I will snag a hen and then tote her to the barn...Easier said and planned then done. After ring around the trees and fence I get one....Chasing the next with bag in my hand and hen screeching as if I was going to hurt her. I end up taking my sole hen to the barn. Back to the next hen again she is acting as if she was in danger but in reality I was keeping her from the evils that lurk in the dark. Okay I am now really soaked and annoyed with it all...I get them into the barn all 4 with some effort and return with water and chicken scratch. Locking door and saying good night. Well come morning there is Aida on the porch with Rocky....How she got out I'll never know. But sure enough here she is....I am now forced to plan yet another route as they will not fall for the trick again.....I trail cat food into the kitchen and hope they fall for it....And then a bit more to the bathroom.. I finally get them in and slap the door shut thinking ah huh got you....I go out for the feed bag and return to the bathroom to find each chicken on the spigots...One on each and pecking at the mirror trying to escape the only way the know how. I am again the enemy and they are crashing things all over items falling into the toilet glass crashing into the sink..I get the hen and stuff her into the bag and now it is the roosters turn a chase ensues and I am loosing ..How I am not sure there is only 4 x 6 feet..... I finally get him but he refuses to have any part of this nonsense. His wings will not go in nor his feet..At last HE IS IN!! I march bag o' chicken to barn and seal the small hole to insure no more escapes happen. I fill feeder and water.. I say good night and return to the house to find feathers floating around as if snow has fallen. I retrieve the shop vac plug her in and begin to suck up the feathers that are EVERY WHERE... The fact that they are flying all around make me nuts...Stabbing the hose into the air trying to suck them in. The problem is that the opposing side of sucking tool has a blower opening, forcing the free feathers to swirl around my head wildly....Flying into open doors over shower curtain and the far corners as well as being the toilet...I shove vac out the door but am unable to put hose in as well as shutting the door the feathers now are floating out the open door into the hall where they land on carpet quill first making it impossible to get them out by normal vacuuming ...Thus I am now on my hands and knees with shop vac and trying in vain to remove them all....As of now I have yet to get them all... That evening while showering I find yet more sticking to my body, like glue.....YUKKO!

The cats are both happy to leap at their new floaty toys to my irritation...

I am sure that my efforts will be rewarded as they have no place to hid those eggs that I have yet to find....The one hen hold out is confused yet will NOT COME NEAR ME....I plan on going out in the dark and grabbing her to join the flock!!! Wish me luck!

Treasures

The lower two photos are treasures sent to me from my friend in LA.....Thanks girly girl!!!! I love the tile my coffee cup sits on it each morning....The other photo was taken one foggy morning.Have recovered and destroyed bad thing in laptop.........will post as soon as thoughts are together...YES in the next 24 hours.....silly girl, fingers work better with chocolate and !!